Enjoyed a lovely conversation with my mom this morning. So nice to be able to talk freely with another human being. I'm blessed to be able to do that with both of my parents and both of my sisters. Had a much needed confession of struggling to move past stuff with my mother-in-law and my core value of justice wanting her to realize who she is and what she has done (not just at the end of 2013, but on a cyclical basis throughout my "relationship" with her). Good to admit when you are having unhealthy thoughts toward another person, whether justified or not - in an individual's mind, and good to hear my mom encourage me with words about how my faith teaches forgiveness, grace, "letting go".....as well as not having to place yourself intentionally in the company of toxic people (pearls before swine, what have you). Encouraged me in what had been easy a few weeks ago, but had become more difficult recently, to pray every day and whenever negative thoughts/feelings arise toward them that they would experience God's love and grace today and know Him fully. I quoted a C.S. Lewis quote to my mom as I was talking about knowing what is right as opposed to how I felt or wanted to think or act. God has a sense of humor and knows exactly how to speak to me, because this afternoon when I was checking my Twitter feed, the C.S. Lewis "quote of the day" was the exact same quote I'd mentioned this morning.
Ha. Ha. Ha. Point taken. Well, for now. I need lots of reminders it seems.
After my mom left, we dug in and attempted to get into our normal schedule. I am a person who prefers to get what "must be done" done quickly and have "free time" afterward. My children did not get that memo and had a difficult time staying focused and on task. We finally finished our planned learning activities at 3:30pm today....after many pleas to God for extra grace and patience that things were not going according to my plan. Ha! We enjoyed a nice break before heading off to gymnastics. While Z and G were at gymnastics, T and I ran some errands and had a nice QT date. We finished off our evening screen free. Showers, dinner, journaling, and bedtime reading. Amazing how much can be done without the distraction of meaningless nonsense. Excited to (hopefully) start tomorrow morning at my desired time of 7AM with some yoga and quiet time before hitting our Wednesday routine. Much to do, but I want to focus on inspiring creativity and learning in my kids and not running through our learning and house work. Sometimes easier said than done.
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