After a long day of at least a 3 mile walk (carrying 30lbs of Tobyn for 1.5 miles of that), going up and down 40 or so stadium steps twice, you'd think I'd be out. Nope. It's 2am and I'm wide awake. Spent the last few hours conversing with the entity that is God. The Almighty. The Wonderful. The Counselor. I have been reminded of all of these attributes we're aware of in just these last few hours. Read the end of "Forgotten God" by Francis Chan and a few chapters of "Erasing Hell" and am acutely aware of just how complex and amazing He is. Also renewed and reminded of my purpose. Not to promote myself, not to make myself more and more comfortable in this life, not to seek safety and security: all of which are here today and gone tomorrow. I am here to point people to the truth. That while we are sinners, fallen and broken, this separate i.e. "holy" God-head made a way for us to know Him, to worship Him in spirit and truth, and escape the inevitable result of our sinful nature: separation from all that God is, in everlasting torment.
Excited about the things God is pushing and growing in my life, my husband's life, and our family as a whole. All of the things born in us: our personalities, our interests; all point to making Him known. I dream of buying a huge (in my mind) amount of land and building a large but simple home with the purpose of housing and loving foster kids in a holistic environment. Who knows what that will look like, where that will be, even when that will be. I only sense the enormity of what is being birthed in us...not for our glory or fame but to showcase how good, how kind, this holy, separate God truly is.
I'm utterly amazed.
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