Woke up with a mild headache, but mostly a lot of stiffness/soreness/mild pain in the back of my neck radiating down through the end of my spine. Called my internist's office and have an appointment today at 2:30pm to check things out. Relaxing, texting with my mom, doing some laundry and book work with the kids this morning. I have no fear as to what or if there is any concern with this. My only fear of dying (just in generic terms, not specific to this situation) is my husband and kids having to deal with that great pain. I know God would bring them through it and they would find beauty in the pain, but having felt a hint of that pain with my miscarriage, and even knowing the beauty and good that has come from it, I don't wish it on anyone.
So, the apt went well. Thankful my sister, Melanie, could watch my kids and lives less than a mile away from my doctor. Also thankful that Rod was able to get off work, drive me, and sat with me the whole time. Love that man of mine. So, after my doctor did some neuro testing and all of my other vitals were perfect, she said she felt it could be one of two things. Aura before a migraine....or MS. We decided to go with the aura thing and just watch for other symptoms of anything more going on. Thankful to not have to do any unneeded tests...but also feels like I didn't get an answer to my issue or how I feel.
Food Journal
Breakfast: 5 Ritz crackers, coffee with creamer
Lunch: 1/2 grilled cheese sandwich, 4 apple slices
Dinner: Papa Murphy's
Water: IIII 8oz. glasses
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
February 18th, 2013
It's been a while. Enjoyed a lovely trip to Houston, TX to visit my parents. Lovely up until we all came down with the flu. Got in some nice adventures before that, though, and if we were all going to have the flu anyway....it was really nice having my parents' help.
Now that I'm home and we're all mostly well, my mind is in a constant frenzy of ideas. Ideas for fixing up the house. Ideas for gardening. Ideas for learning. The list just keeps growing. Trying to hone in and focus. I cannot do a million things at once. On the other hand, sometimes it seems I love planning more than I love doing.
Spending today catching up on laundry and dishes. Lots of relaxing for the kids. Recovery all around. Tomorrow starts my new "daily routine". Hoping it will go well. Reminding myself that I can't wait for everything to fall perfectly in place before I begin. Life is just plain messy.
It's so nice to have laundry kept up and a general sense of order in the house. It's not perfect by any means, but I don't want to live in a museum. It has a pleasantly lived in feeling.
Made a scrumptious dinner and after checking to make sure everything was going well, went downstairs to check my Facebook. Around 5pm. My vision got super blurry. So much that I couldn't read anything on the screen *with* my glasses on. Went and checked to make sure nothing was obviously in my eyes, noticed my peripheral vision was lowered...especially on my left side. Like there was pretty much nothing. Tried taking off my glasses, etc. to see if anything changed it. Checked dinner again, by the time Rod was home the vision issue had cleared up replaced by a pressure headache in my forehead and behind my ears. A little weird. Called my nurse mother and got advice as to whether I could wait and see my internist tomorrow or needed a trip to the ER. Ran to Wal-Mart to check my blood pressure and pulse. A little high, but nothing crazy obvious. So, decided to rest and see the doc tomorrow. Not how I planned to spend the evening, but such is life.
Food Journal
Breakfast: 2 cream cheese pancakes with syrup
Lunch: 1/2 pb and jelly sandwich with 1/4 of an apple
Dinner: 1 cup chicken & broccoli stir-fry with 1 cup roasted sweet potatoes
Water (with lemon! amazing how good it is): IIIIII (8oz. glasses)
Now that I'm home and we're all mostly well, my mind is in a constant frenzy of ideas. Ideas for fixing up the house. Ideas for gardening. Ideas for learning. The list just keeps growing. Trying to hone in and focus. I cannot do a million things at once. On the other hand, sometimes it seems I love planning more than I love doing.
Spending today catching up on laundry and dishes. Lots of relaxing for the kids. Recovery all around. Tomorrow starts my new "daily routine". Hoping it will go well. Reminding myself that I can't wait for everything to fall perfectly in place before I begin. Life is just plain messy.
It's so nice to have laundry kept up and a general sense of order in the house. It's not perfect by any means, but I don't want to live in a museum. It has a pleasantly lived in feeling.
Made a scrumptious dinner and after checking to make sure everything was going well, went downstairs to check my Facebook. Around 5pm. My vision got super blurry. So much that I couldn't read anything on the screen *with* my glasses on. Went and checked to make sure nothing was obviously in my eyes, noticed my peripheral vision was lowered...especially on my left side. Like there was pretty much nothing. Tried taking off my glasses, etc. to see if anything changed it. Checked dinner again, by the time Rod was home the vision issue had cleared up replaced by a pressure headache in my forehead and behind my ears. A little weird. Called my nurse mother and got advice as to whether I could wait and see my internist tomorrow or needed a trip to the ER. Ran to Wal-Mart to check my blood pressure and pulse. A little high, but nothing crazy obvious. So, decided to rest and see the doc tomorrow. Not how I planned to spend the evening, but such is life.
Food Journal
Breakfast: 2 cream cheese pancakes with syrup
Lunch: 1/2 pb and jelly sandwich with 1/4 of an apple
Dinner: 1 cup chicken & broccoli stir-fry with 1 cup roasted sweet potatoes
Water (with lemon! amazing how good it is): IIIIII (8oz. glasses)
Monday, February 18, 2013
January 29th, 2013
Don't you love waking up from a vivid dream? I don't. For one, I rarely ever wake up remembering any dreams I had. The last month or so, though, it seems like a continous occurance. Last night's was a doosy. For who knows what reason, watching a mother lying next to her lifeless grown son in a hospital bed and having to say goodbye. Good grief, I am a bit of a wreck this morning. I struggle anyway with a fine line of being cautious and just being all out "don't leave the house....you're going to die". I'm not worried or concerned for myself. My only hang up on me personally dying is the thought of leaving my kids behind and the questions and pain they would endure losing a mother so young. However, it seems almost as infinitely painful to have one of my children go before me. Then God whispers through different avenues peace into my heart: reminders of things I know already but forget in these moments of near panic. He is peace when my fear is crippling.
In other news, typical Oklahoma weather: it's a muggy 70+ degrees outside and we're under a Tornado Watch until 3pm. Praying saftey over those who's work is outside today. I'm sure it's from the weather system, but seems like my pressure headache just increases. Took it super easy yesterday out of necessity it seemed. Today I have no such option. Bookwork with the kids this morning and then cleaning and laundry.
Food Journal
Breakfast: bread with peanut butter and strawberry spread, 1 mug of coffee with sugar and milk
Lunch: egg & sweet potato hash
2 8oz glasses of Cherry Coke
Water intake: -8oz. glasses
In other news, typical Oklahoma weather: it's a muggy 70+ degrees outside and we're under a Tornado Watch until 3pm. Praying saftey over those who's work is outside today. I'm sure it's from the weather system, but seems like my pressure headache just increases. Took it super easy yesterday out of necessity it seemed. Today I have no such option. Bookwork with the kids this morning and then cleaning and laundry.
Food Journal
Breakfast: bread with peanut butter and strawberry spread, 1 mug of coffee with sugar and milk
Lunch: egg & sweet potato hash
2 8oz glasses of Cherry Coke
Water intake: -8oz. glasses
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